By Lisa Huddleston
My pastor, Jim Thomas, is famous for his use of quotations. He tries to use the shorter ones on Sunday and the small chapters on Tuesday evening during Bible study–although I do believe he overlaps this approach at times (and I love it). This past Sunday, one quote in particular stood out. I’m an Os Guinness fan having read and reread The Call so I was already tuned in to the author, but the words themselves spoke to my soul: Repentance is the beginning of becoming undeceived.
I am always flirting around with the idea of reality. Whose reality? Mine? Yours? God’s? Of course, God’s is the real reality; but, how do I know when I’ve arrived at it? What is really real?
Am I really real when I feel paranoid and left out of the party? Am I really real when I think I look good in leopard print jeans? Am I really real when I tell myself “I hate you” and wish I could just disappear? Am I really real when I spontaneously tell a stranger “I love you” as I help her take her diapers and formula to her car? What is really real, and will the really real me, please, stand up?
Os Guinness suggests repentance is where I should begin. Okay. Good thought. I repent of self-centeredness, of pride, of self-importance. Great and wonderful places to begin. Oh God, really open my eyes to reality. Undeceive me of the deceivers lies. Help me to repent and keep repenting–not in a narcissistic way, but in spirit and in truth.
Open the eyes of my heart, Lord. I want to see you. I want to see you.
Well said and thought provoking at such a time as this.
Thanks, Jill.
Thanks, Lisa. “Oh God, really open my eyes to reality. Undeceive me of the deceivers lies.”—my prayer
Mine, too, Sandra!