By Lisa Huddleston
When I first began this blog, I was just beginning to re-discover my nearly lost love of writing. My children were growing up, heading off to college, and I was suddenly (for the first time in 20 years) finding myself with too much time on my hands. I was also in the throes of a massive identity crisis.
I began with devotionals. Carefully crafted: scripture verse at the top in italics, a discussion of what the verse was saying, a short life application, and often a call to action. It was a safe way to write. I always did my utmost to support anything I said from scripture, and I rarely heard anything but positive comments.
My writing has changed as I have. Now I write from my emotional heart–my “being self.” Yes, I still strive to support my words from a Christian worldview. Afterall, I am a Christian. However I have stopped hiding behind the Bible. Now when I have real struggles and need to explore less-than-popular opinions, I do. And that has changed the feedback that I have received.
But that is real. Christians struggle. Christians even sin. And I would rather read the words of a struggling believer than those of someone who thinks they have it all together. (I know–I’ve never even been able to pretend to that!!)
Both when I began and now, writing is cathartic. Mainly this blog is a way for me to process what is going on in my heart and head–to make sense of the pinballs that are bouncing around in me. It is not primarily about the reader. But … I do care about my reader. I do not want to discourage. I do not want to promote doubtful or sinful living. Not at all! But I believe that being honest allows us both–reader and writer–to deal better with life. Just as writing helps me to get rid of the junk I feel, reading the writings of others who are struggling helps me to do the same thing.
I’m sure by now you can guess that I have received negative feedback from someone who has been reading this blog. I respect that and even appreciate the honesty that my reader has extended. But as with everything, readers have a choice about what they read just as writers have a choice about what they write. Freedom. If I have offended (or discouraged or depressed) you, dear reader, please unsubscribe. I appreciate your freedom to choose.
However this is who I am learning to be. Me. A struggling, sometimes succeeding and sometimes failing, follower stumbling forward in the path of Jesus Christ. I fall, a lot, but I always get back up and keep on walking. And that’s where (or who) I am. Hope you get that and can keep walking that path with me.
Peace and grace, and thanks for reading.