Yeah, I had that happen to me only it was much worse, because I was all alone. You’re so lucky to have help.
You just need to make yourself get out of the house more often.
Have you been going to yoga? You know, exercise makes you feel much better.
I read this great book all about how depression is a spiritual problem. I can loan you a copy.
If you suffer from clinical depression, chances are you have heard many statements like those above. People equate depression with laziness or sadness or lack of willpower. Depression is much more than that—it takes the energy from your life. You can’t read, you can’t create, you can’t clean, you can’t get ready to go out, you can’t carry on conversations, and sometimes you can’t even sleep. It isn’t situational, and there is little that a depressed person can do about it other than to depend upon mental health professionals and wait it out. But the waiting can feel impossible at times.
I called my doctor’s office the other evening, because the waiting had become just that. Because I have drug resistant depression very little has helped me when the dips in the road swallow me whole and without warning. I can’t help thinking about the “easy” ways out. (Again, that’s what people call it.) So this time I called. And now my husband is home for the next couple of weeks at my doctor’s recommendation watching me and handling my medications and worrying about letting me out of his sight for too long. He knows I am smart and stubborn. I am sad for him and for me. I don’t like seeing him as my keeper or my adversary. I don’t like being treated as a child who cannot control her own medical care.
In January, hopefully as soon as possible, I will begin Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation. My doc says it’s the gold standard, and he has seen great recoveries in other drug resistant patients.
Until then I’m stuck waiting and listening to well-meaning advice and faking it when I can. What do I want to hear from friends and family?
I’m really sorry you are feeling so rotten.
Is there anything I can do to help?
Sometimes just breathing is a good day.